-vurnerable

often in life,
people say they are okay when they are not,
they act strong,
yet they are very fragile inside,
they hide the pain,
but pain is all their heart,
in denial they are,
but they have reasons,
sure they have,
a thief would not steal for nothing,
nor do a mom when she scolds her kids,
people are vulnerable,
we all are,
we can be as soft as a cotton candy,
or as hard as the rocky mountains,
and only the heart knows why...

Everywhere I look I see her smile
Her absent-minded eyes
And she has kept me wondering for so long
How this thing could go wrong.

It seems to me that we are both the same
Playing the same game
But as darkness falls this true love falls apart Into a riddle of her heart.

She's so vulnerable, like china in my hands
She's so vulnerable and I don't understand
I could never hurt the one I love
She's all I've got
But she's so vulnerable
Oh so vulnerable.

Days like these no one should be alone
No heart should hide away
Her touch is gently conquering my mind
There's nothing words can say.

She's coloured all the secrets of my soul
I've whispered all my dreams
But just as nighttime falls this vision falls apart
Into a riddle of her heart, yea.

She's so vulnerable, like china in my hands
She's so vulnerable and I don't understand
I could never hurt someone I love
She's all I've got
But she's so vulnerable
Oh so vulnerable.

Don't hide your eyes...

:::ROXETTE:::

-21 Guns...

this song is dedicated to myself... it just that sometimes i'm sick of fighting... i am..
i can be tired too...

21 Guns lyrics
Songwriters: Armstrong, Billie Joe; Bowie, David; Pritchard, Michael; Wright, Frank E., Iii;

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

-True colours...

read this lyric first,

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

-Cyndi Lauper : True Colors-

try to imagine,
isn't it wonderful when one day, you're sad,
you isolate yourself from the world,
and all of sudden someone dedicate you this song.
No. nobody dedicated it to me. huhu.
but it sure will uplift our spirit once we ponder upon the words.

it just that this song's is truly meaningful.
true colours.
i believe that everyone of us is unique in our very own way.
should that we're all the same, won't the world will become mundane then?
inside us there's a trait of characteristics that define of who we truly are.
our very own colours.

sometimes the society i.e the people fail to realize this,
they expect to see we're all will become something that they expect us to be.
sometimes they blame our attitudes which are not at par of their standard.
we have our own qualities. our own virtues.
it would be great if each of us able to see that everyone is difference.

some people are afraid of showing their true natures.
they behave according to the demand of their surrounding.
its for the sake of acceptance of their community.
by being what they are not. is it worth it?
and how long will it last then?

few dare to be different.
but this few are the one who are most contented with their life.
i believe.
should someone accept them, they accept his/her whole being.
and that's the good part of it.
its really a bliss if someone said that they love us for what we are.

i'm still learning to be myself.
i want to colour myself well
and i won't be afraid of showing them.

i like purple. but my stuffs most are black and white. i like them too.

what's your colour then?

-American Idol....

i really like Anoop's song true colors this week,
his voice kinda sound magical for me.
n yeah i like Danny's version of stand by me,
i like the starting part, sound very Christmas like for me,
and as usual Adam's voice is simply mesmerizing,
and the husky voiced Allison is sure one of a kind.

they are my four favourite contestants so far.

vote for them America.

-Oh Carol, i'm such a fool....

i'm a big fan of oldies songs you see... yea those evergreen songs like Elvis Presly, Air Supply, Roxette and etc... call me old school, i'm ok with it.. i grow up listening to their songs, apart from listening to the Backstreet Boys, 911 and Five and even Celine Dion.. i know, i'm the 80's and 90's generation..

well, hey evergreen songs are nostalgic you know... it reminds me of the past.. chee as if la i can think like now during that time.. below are some of my favourite songs, do you remember them??

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

-All out of love-Air Supply-


Almost heaven, West Virginia, Blue Ridge Mountains

Shenandoah River ,Life is old there

Older than the trees, Younger than the mountains

Growing like a breeze

Country Roads, take me home,

To the place I belong, West Virginia, mountain momma

Take me home, country roads

-Take me home country roads-John Denver-

Pretty woman, walkin' down the street

Pretty woman the kind I like to meet

Pretty woman I don't believe you, you're not the truth

No one could look as good as you---mercy



Pretty woman won't you pardon me

Pretty woman I couldn't help but see

Pretty woman that you look lovely as can be

Are you lonely just like me---

-Pretty Woman-Roy Orbison-

Oh! Carol, I am but a fool,

Darling I love you tho' you treat me cruel,

You hurt me and you made me cry

But if you leave me I will surely die.

-Oh Carol-Heil Sedoka-


Oh yeah I tell you somethin',I think you'll understand

When I say that somethin', I want to hold your hand (3x)


Oh please say to me, You'll let me be your man

And please say to me, You'll let me hold your hand

Now, let me hold your hand, I want to hold your hand

-I wanna hold your hand-The Beatles-


It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.

She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.

And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"

And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight.

-You look wonderful tonight-Eric Clapton-



What about love

Don't you want someone to care about you

What about love, Don't let it slip away

What about love, I only want to share it with you

You might need it some day

-What about love-Heart-


When the night has come, And the land is dark

And the moon is the only light we'll see

No I won't be afraid, oh I won't be afraid

Just as long as you stand, stand by me

So darlin', darlin', stand by me, Oh stand by me

Oh stand by me, stand by me

-Stand by me-Ben E. King-


Wise men say only fools rush in

but I can't help falling in love with you

Shall I stay, would it be a sin

If I can't help falling in love with you

-I can't help falling in love-Elvis Presley-

carpe diem folks!!!

-confused...

i earnestly hate myself now.. for not being able to figure myself out...
i thought everything has been sorted out...
it just infatuation i thought... its like impossible for me to be with you.. really...
you there and i'm here... we never even have a long conversation.. on our own...
and maybe sometimes you did made it clear that; hello, i'm not interested in you...
i saw it and perhaps i didn't understand...i don't want to understand...
coz sometimes i think as i move on with this life...
the thought of you, made me stumble.. over and over again...
yeah, you'll never know my feelings, maybe i've shown it...
you saw it and you didn't understand.. maybe you don't want to understand...
perhaps i still haven't found someone who can take your place...
will there ever be one??
being a sore loser myself, i know my position well...
i'm just a one lame, plain guy who still searching for myself...
still believe in putting up hope, though i knew the answer already...
right know, if i'm being given just one wish...
my wish is to be with you...
and i know that it would never be true...

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Fall For You
by Secondhand Serenade

-something for my future spouse..

I'll be -Edwin McCain-

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

Chorus:
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be your love suicide
and I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

Repeat Chorus

I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said

Repeat Chorus

-Here in my home..

found this at Ysmin Ahmad's blog, so i thought i wanna share it with you guys too.. well, this our very own Malaysian Unity song by Malaysian artiste for Unity of course.. and it is cool..

where is my home?
it's here in Malaysia... :)

-careless me...huhu...

wanna know what happened just now? huhu.. i went to the police station.. not because that i committed some crimes or whatsoever, i went there to pick my wallet.. seriously,i didn't realise i lost it till the cop phoned.. when the cop called, i was like ok, what the hell the i got to do with the police in the middle of the night.. he then told me somebody sent my wallet there and only then i searched my pocket (i even sempat to utter the word "shit" while the cop still on the line when it was confirmed that my wallet was not with me)..

thanks to Add and Pink who accompanied me to the police station.. thanks God there's someone out there who kind enough to send my wallet there.. i don't know la what will happen if it just being left on the street..the kind people didn't leave their phone num for me to give my thanks.. God will pay you ok..

lately,i was kinda obsessed playing guitar coz i know how to play some songs already.. haha..and i learnt it all by my own.. songs like bedroom window by Nice StupidPlayground, Hero by Enrique, time after time Matchbox 20 version and leaving on a jet plane are some songs that suitable for beginners..the chords are easy and you'll managed to master it in a few days only.. give it a try..

till then peeps.. good day!!

-i heart natalie of girlicious.. simply girlicious haha..

i just knew the result of the girlicious group members when i surfed the U-tube just know.. and my favourite, natalie made it.. haha.. yeah, she do got some bad attitudes tho, but still she's a total hottie.. i like her sultry look and especially her eyes.. *i always fall for smiling eyes.. you already got a fan here natalie.. hehe.. :)

-Chapter 8:learning guitar..

i'm learning guitar lately.. never got the time to do so before.. so, i'm taking the time i got this holiday to learn.. apart to kill times and boredom.. and guess what i know how to play a song already and that is Happy Birthday.. haha.. the tab only la.. at least one song bah.. ;p

i found this dude inside You Tube (God I'm really thanking the You Tube owner for creating it, berjasa to me a lot lately)...

wish i got the talent and voice like him.. hehe.. you can see his other video at You Tube which he did a lot of cover song .. who knows he might be the next Marie Digby.. the You Tube star singer..

hey gotta go for now, got some guitar lessons to catch up.. hehe..

-sweet sedek :)..

damn the internet server connection here.. cannot online for a few days already.. aigoo.. (aiyaa just few days pun nak bising) :p

i received a comment from one of my good buddies, Saydek which i found so sweet.. judge it yourself...

seriously it looks like the primary school drawing when the the teacher asked the student to draw about their friend.. compliment what saydek.. cool + cute = cote (not kotek) heh2.. he is one of my great pal during high school and still am now though we're seperated far due to different places of study.. yeah, we usually hang out together during holidays.. and he happened to be the other person who able to make me laugh to death too apart from burry.. he was the class monitor during form 5 and it was one of my best class ever.. yup, he the class leader but he the one who lead the class like pasar ikan.. true wat?.. heh2.. nevertheless dude.. you are one of my crazy and fun to be with buddy.. see ya this coming holiday aite..

neway, this are my four legendary high school buddies.. miss them a lot..

this song is for you saydek, our high school anthem..

~Sahabat Sejati by Sheila On 7~

Sahabat sejatiku, hilangkah dari ingatanmu
Di hari kita saling berbagi
Dengan kotak sejuta mimpi, aku datang menghampirimu
Kuperlihatkan semua hartaku

Kita slalu berpendapat, kita ini yang terhebat
Kesombongan di masa muda yang indah
Aku raja kaupun raja
Aku hitam kaupun hitam
Arti teman lebih dari sekedar materi

Pegang pundakku, jangan pernah lepaskan
Bila ku mulai lelah, lelah dan tak bersinar
Remas sayapku, jangan pernah lepaskan
Bila ku ingin terbang, terbang meninggalkanmu

Ku slalu membanggakanmu, kaupun slalu menyanjungku
Aku dan kamu darah abadi
Demi bermain bersama, kita duakan segalanya
Merdeka kita, kita merdeka

Tak pernah kita pikirkan
Ujung perjalanan ini
Tak usah kita pikirkan
ujung perjalanan ini

-my dreamo...

one of my dream is to be in a hall where the orchestra will play the Ludwig van Beethoven great masterpiece's -symphony no.9.. incorporates with the ode to joy poem by Friedrich Schiller..that music really thrills me..yeah call me classical, sentimental or whatsoever.. i have this art side stuck within my science's life.. i love art actually especially in music.. those orchestra, marching band, and all traditional music and dances performances.. yeah, i know i will be going alone to such performances... but if anybody want to go to such events, you know who you want to call aite..heh2..

fyi, i never participated actively in this art stuffs.. i just like to see and listen.. hehe.. aa tipu me.. i involved in my school's orchestra together with saydeq and rino.. missing those days.. at first i played the trombone and then the trumpet.. now lupa already how to play.. aiyaa.. miss to play songs like Crunch time, Tanah Pusaka, Sarawak gemilang n etc... forgot already..

trivia: -ludwig van beethoven almost completely deaf when he finished his 9th symphony...
and do come to Sarawak Culture Village's rain forest music festival which is held every year at Kuching keh.. :)

a tribute for someone..

...BLINK 182-I'M LOST WITHOUT YOU...

i swear that i,can go on forever, again,
please let me know,that my one bad day, will end,
give me your lips, and with one kiss, we begin,

are you afraid of being alone?
cause i am,im lost without you,
are you afraid of leaving tonight?
cause i am,im lost without you.

i'll leave my room, open till sunrise, for you,
i'll keep my eyes, patiently focused, on you,
where are you know?i can hear footsteps, i'm dreaming,
and if you will, keep me from waking, to belive this,

are you afraid of being alone?
cause i am,i'm lost without you,
are you afraid of leaving tongiht?
cause i am,i'm lost without you.

Come let sing together... (^____^)

Dashing through the snow On a one-horse open sleigh,

Over the fields we go, Laughing all the way;

Bells on bob-tail ring,making spirits bright,

What fun it is to ride and sing A sleighing song tonight

Jingle bells, jingle bells,jingle all the way!

O what fun it is to ride In a one-horse open sleigh

A day or two ago,I thought I'd take a ride

,And soon Miss Fanny BrightWas seated by my side;

The horse was lean and lank;Misfortune seemed his lot;

He got into a drifted bank,And we, we got up sot.

Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,Jingle all the way!

What fun it is to rideIn a one-horse open sleigh.

A day or two ago,the story I must tell

I went out on the snowAnd on my back I fell;

A gent was riding byIn a one-horse open sleigh,

He laughed as thereI sprawling lie,But quickly drove away.

Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,Jingle all the way!

What fun it is to rideIn a one-horse open sleigh.

Now the ground is whiteGo it while you're young,

Take the girls tonightAnd sing this sleighing song;

Just get a bob-tailed baytwo-forty as his speed

Hitch him to an open sleighAnd crack! you'll take the lead.

Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells,Jingle all the way!

What fun it is to rideIn a one-horse open sleigh.

Apologize... One Republic - Timbaland

thanks for my 'good' roomate, mr. Jude, who introduces this song to me..
i consider this song 'berhantu' for me.. i keep on playing it for the time being
(until i get bored of course.. hoho)...

here is the lyric...

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

hoho.. looks like i'm doing some sort of promotion for one republic here...

okies... gewd day guys...
enjoy the song... (^_^)

muzika...

Below are some of the songs i'm listening now...

SUM 41

BEST OF ME...

It's so hard to say that I'm sorry I'll make everything alright

all these things that I've done now what have I become and where'd I go wrong

I dont mean to hurt just to put you first I wont tell you lies (I'm sorry)

I will stand accused with my hand on my heart, I'm just trying to say;

I'm sorry, it's all that I can say you mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done,

if I could start againI'd throw it all away, to the shadows of regrets and

you would have the best of me

I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes but I will try

although it's not easy I know you believe me cause I would not lie

don't believe their lies, don't peryell the size they don't understand (I'm sorry)

I won't break your heart, I won't bring you down, but I will have to say;

I'm sorry, it's all that I can say you mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done,

if I could start againI'd throw it all away, to the shadows of regrets and

you would have the best of me

Quietdrive

TIME AFTER TIME

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick and think of you

Caught up in circles confusion is nothing new

You say go slow; I fall behind The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me Time after time

If you fall I will catch you; I'll be waiting Time after time

Sometimes you picture me I'm walking too far ahead

You're calling to me I can't hear just what you've said

You say go slow; I fall behind The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me Time after time

If you fall I will catch you; I'll be waiting Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has turned to grey

Watching through windows, you're wondering if I'm ok

You say go slow; I fall behind The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me Time after time

If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me Time after time

If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting (I will be waiting) Time after time

Enjoy the rest of your day guys...

(*______*)