-its all the matter of choices...

lately, some of my hardships have test my limit of endurance... its hard.. but not as hard as i thought it could be... I'd gone through much more harder time before and this is just a like piece of it.. furthermore, how can i say i'm in so much trouble because out there, there are many more people who are suffering and yet face it courageously...

its all the matter of choices.. is it not? whenever misfortunes fall, its how you perceived it that will determine it all.. i can sit and sulk the whole day if i'm in trouble and feel depress or stress about it.. i can waste my time thinking about it over and over again and being possessed by it... but i choose not to.. i rather cajole myself and say that i'll make it through... bit by bit.. step by step.. no matter how long it may takes... this is my choice... let it bleed in the inside but sooner or later it will heals in someway or another...

yeah it is not easy to think positively towards everything.. sometimes life is trying as hard as it could to make our life misrable.. human is not perfect they say and i believe thats true.. if we are perfect so then what is the purpose of our living then... being flexible is good... sometimes its ok to cry and angry on something but don't be eaten by that feelings... doing silly things are cool and fun coz at the end of the day it all seems good and funny after all... like; did i cried over this lousy matter? what did i actually do yesterday, was it measuring maps on the pillows (no, i don't do this) and etc.. yeah, me too always like to laugh at my own foolishness.. like i said before, it feels great..

last time i met this young indian boy at one food court here.. before that, there this one hawker who gave my change less RM1.. its not a big deal actually for me la.. but my friend made a fuss about it.. after taking my drink's order, this indian boy tried to help me to get my money change but my friend already gone to ask for it first.. what i'm trying to say is that sometimes a small coincidences like this thought us a lot about life.. this young boy whom i didn't know whether he goes to school or not is doing his job honestly and being helpful at the same time.. at such a tender age he works to support his family back home (i think)... it makes me think that sometimes it is not there are no clever people or they don't want to study till Uni level, but some don't have the opportunities to do so... sometimes life and luck are not at their side, but they try to live life the way they should.. can't we see that no matter how hard life can be for us, there are more who lead a much harder life.. count the blessings ya..

yeah, this is only a reminder to myself... i like to write things like this whenever i feel a bit down.. its my style of throwing away all the misery... i don't want to waste my time to not appreciate this life for life is good and in fact we live it once... unless the incarnation concept is true la kan.. whoah, i might as well published my own spiritual book one day..hmm not on hardworking of course.. haha.. okies.. thats all i guess.. cheers for life and make sure you make the right choice!! (this add is brought to you by staind's blog..heh2..)

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own

And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

Mariah Carey -Through the rain-